Jhaynee

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my ballerina dream

In Others on Marso 7, 2009 at 9:32 umaga
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NOTE: Perfect Christmas update —>Part 3: FAST BACKWARD
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medium: oil

gamit: junior artist oil pastels ni bunso. hehehe

when i was young, i wanted to be a ballerina but mom said the lessons were too expensive and she can’t afford to enroll me to a ballet school. being used to living a life with limited resources, i understood mom was having difficulties with our finances and so i was fine with it. being content with self study and practice, i grew up having a lot of interests which i wasn’t able to pursue and talents that i haven’t been able to develop fully. now that im grown up, i find myself in an unstable ground where my path is far from the things that my heart has always desired.

once upon a time… i dreamed of being a painter, a pianinst, an opera singer, a stage actress, but most especially, a BALLERINA.

now… i know how to draw, play the guitar, sing, act and dance.

but i dont want to just KNOW. i want to be really good at it and excel on the field. i guess im far from what i really want huh?

*sigh*

 

I HATE BEING A MEDIOCRE.

I’m Sorry…

In Others on Marso 3, 2009 at 6:24 hapon

im sorry for the times when i have forgotten to show you how much you mean to me…

 

at times when i have been busy with a lot of things and i forget that there is someone who lovingly waits for me to remember him. though most of the times i forget, he never stops caring ang understanding…

 

at times when the whole world misunderstands me and judges me, i know he will be beside to defend me and protect me without any doubt nor fear because he knows me and gracefully accpets me for who i am…

 

at times when i am alone and i sit in a acorner feeling neglected and unwanted, his love lingers in my heart and whispers to my soul that no matter the distance i will never be alone. i am wrapped in his love and it gives me the warmth that i need to put my soul at ease…

 

thank you so much for the unconditional love that you have always given me… a love that does not wait for anything in return; a love that does not measure a person’s worth; a love that is endures all pain and challenges…

 

a love that is ours…

 

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH…

 

and i want you to know that in between case studies and overheating laptops, you are never forgotten.